Pray for your Haters

Oh is this a hard thing to do!!! But you know, at the end of it all....it's the right thing to do...because they need it!! We all do!! So hard to believe that all you can focus on is God destroying another person or bringing damnation on them!!! Truly???? And this is spoken in Love?? In the statements that they have screamed from the roof tops...LOVE WINS!!! OK?!?! if love wins....you would NOT be posting and speaking of such destruction to another human being!! Again, immaturity on all levels!! But...that's ok..we all have to grow and understand Gods true words!! That comes with growth and a true desire to be surrendered to Gods plan and His work for your life!! So glad I am beyond this type of ignorance and I am SO thankful that I serve a loving God! Anyone that prays destruction on your life or wishes bad things to you or your family or threatens you or your family....they are not someone that you would want to listen to any of their words! Pray for them and rebuke their threats as there is NOTHING Godly about that at all!

Pray for those that come against you!!! I'm learning this the hard way and boy....I want nothing to do with these people...but God created them just as He did me and I have released the hurt, the pain, the threats that they have brought to my family and I have given them to God! Oh how they need the sweet love and peace of Jesus! Knowing this...I pray God will move on their behalf and bring them nothing but joy, peace and His true love and I hope they will find the true meaning of LOVE WINS!!!  So glad my boat has sailed on past this wreckage and my delete buttons have gotten rid of their viruses ....but it still leaves a hurt and confused set of individuals and because of that...I will continue to pray for their healing!! Mentally and emotionally! Gods true peace and love will restore...there is NOTHING better than that!! 

Even Through the Hate....

You know, over the past few years, my little family has been through some really heartbreaking things.  Death, failed marriage, just plain heartbreak! It's been a while now and I have really done my best to keep my feelings inside, but when you hurt my family..especially my children...it's very hard to do the "right" things. I have been angry and just disgusted by the behavior and the loss to my daughter (financially, mentally) it just burns me to my core! But now that time has passed and I look back at the awful behavior given to her by those that claimed they loved her...and all in the name of Christianity...it just floors me.  The threats that came down from "a precious man of God" unreal.  It has just opened my eyes to see that you have to be careful who you trust and who you put confidence in. "Leaders" that could not even help their own children...and yet, let them hurt and destroy each other.  It's a shame....OH BUT HOW GOD RESTORES! There are still some financial hits that the other party continues to run from and not take care of..but, she has a WONDERFUL husband, she is having a beautiful baby soon and God has truly restored her joy and given her far more than she has lost! Actually, didn't lose anything but heartache, pain and horrible treatment all the way around - I am SO GLAD that is all gone and she is happier than I have ever seen. 

Through all of this, I have learned to pray...even for those who curse you, bring strife, pain and disgust to your life.  Pray for these poor individuals as they need God more than anything you could ever offer them!

Today, I am thankful that God has kept His hand on my family even through the ugliest of times.  He is faithful and He will never leave you alone. 

So thankful...

Just WRONG!

...one of the biggest signs of "Christian" immaturity is using someone else's misfortune or bad luck or bad situation as a way to blog or display your "message". God doesn't work like this AT ALL! It's such an insecurity and it's very sad that those who do not know better would believe and fall for these types of false representations of God's word. It's even worse that those who present this way feel like they are doing the right thing and think that it's the best way to s...how God's teachings or His love. Sick and twisted! We all have bad things that come into our lives...NO it is not KARMA! I do not believe in that. Life throws curve balls in all situations of our lives. We all suffer with loss, be it those we love, lost relationships, jobs, friends, whatever....no one is exempt from this. DO NOT beat up the poor individuals that have experienced these kinds of losses and make it your "sermon" and believe that it is the right thing to do! It's garbage! It's hurtful and it's plain wrong! What would make you want to be a part of anyone like this? Be careful with that...you just might be the next blog post or sermon! Know this...you are NOT a victim of KARMA, you are NOT being punished - you are going through a rough time and sometimes we don't understand and we feel like the world is against us..just remember, God's got YOU....Joy comes in the morning...dark clouds don't stay dark forever!! Hang in there!

It's been a while....why am I so bad at this? LOL

Hello My Friends: Man, it's been a while since I've posted.  I really am bad at this, aren't I? LOL And you know what's coming next...the New Year is coming and I am going to get better at this!! Ok...well, maybe I will, maybe I won't.  I have been sitting here debating if I start my blog over with a completely new look or do I just move on from here and keep going....I've decided, just move on from here and keep going.  Life seems to always get in the way of the fun stuff for me...nope, I am not going to make excuses, I am just putting out there what I feel at this moment. 

I love documenting my life.  I love the thought of keeping a current blog and sharing my life and all of the things we go through, good and bad.  It just seems that life gets so busy and crazy and it just never works out that my blogging will get done the way I want it too. I want to get better at it...so, just know that I am trying! LOL guess we will leave it at that.

Lots of changes have taken place since my last posts.  Some awesome things, some things that just needed to happen to help move forward and some things that we don't understand but are dealing with them the best we can.  All in all...life is good.  Life is SO Good!  Life is TRULY AMAZING!

Another thing that I really love doing and I seem to always let go to the side...is videos! I don't keep up on my YouTube channel too well either...yes, something else I am going to try and get better at.

I have some exciting projects coming up...I am doing a December Daily this year for the first time.  Can't wait to get started on doing that.  I purchased the Heidi Swapp planner and I am thinking of doing the capture 30 class she is hosting in January.  I am also SUPER excited about doing the One Little Word workshop with Ali Edwards.  I truly can't wait to do that.

My album for my December Daily will be here today it looks like and I just received the kit contents a few days ago.  I will be doing a video on my prep with the album this week and I will post it here as well as on my channel.  I hope you check it out.

I hope you all have a wonderful Thanksgiving.  I am thankful for so much this year! Life is good....document it all................

Much love ~
Finally ~ today we are heading up North.  I am so ready for some time away.  We have been so busy with work, working around the new home and getting things the way we want them - we are just ready to enjoy being with each other and relaxing.  Life can be so busy and we forget the little things that are most important.
I have been working a lot on organization in every area of my life, work, home, even my digital life.  I organized my iPhone!! To some, this may sound crazy...but, I have to be honest...what a weight that has been lifted all of my shoulders just from that simple task. If you know me...you know...I LOVE MY PICTURES!!! I had over 2,600 pictures on my phone.  How crazy have I been to just leave them there and not transfer them to my external drive for safe keeping?? Well, I am elated to say that is just one of the things I did to organize my phone.  It runs much better and my precious photos are safe. 
Well...I wanted to pop in and ask you to join us on our little road trip! I will be shooting all kinds of pictures and uploading them for you to come along with us. 
When we get back...my posts next week will be about organization.  Let's join in this journey together too!! I'm all about making life easier.
I hope you all have a wonderful weekend...and watch for some exciting pictures of our weekend journey!

Much love ~ The Engels

Decisions and Determination

If you know me at all...you know that I really over think things and lots of times, I may talk myself right out of something that I really should be doing. 
As I am getting older, I am really starting to evaluate myself and take a long look in the mirror and seeing me for who I really am.  As I look in the mirror....WOW....this woman has been through alot of things..good, bad, awful, amazing....life's journey can really be a whirlwind of things. I've made good decisions, bad decisions and really messed up.  I've been on top of the world and I have also been in the pit.  Through it all.....as I look in the mirror...I am proud of that woman and I know that there are many more trials, tribulations and successes coming to me. I've been very wishy washy on some things and that is a HUGE fault of mine.  I will get so pumped up on something that I want to do and then in a matter of a short amount of time, all of that enthusiasm will just disappear and I will let it go.  That is one thing that I am constantly working on and it's not easy for me.  I don't know where I picked up on that or how that came about for me...but, I am just being honest, it's a weakness of mine and it's caused me a lot of headache, trust me! 
Well, past all of that...here I am today....I will be 43 years old in a few weeks!!! HOLY COW...where in the world have the years gone????? I can't believe it! I'm a wife, a mother of two, I stay at home....I have an 18 month old baby...yep...no lie and a 19 year old, married daughter! I wouldn't trade any of it. 
So.....now that I have settled myself into being a mom of a toddler again and being home alone WAY TOO MUCH due to my husband's career.....it's time for me....to make some changes....it's so hard for me....I don't want to put my little one in childcare...I HATE the thought of that.....and I have a dream of being a nurse....I ALWAYS have....I attempted to go to nursing school in 2009.  I was doing great on my pre-reqs..then, my uncle was diagnosed with cancer and my husband and myself had to take care of him, he passed away a few short months later, then my mother was diagnosed with Alzheimer's and that went downhill VERY fast...she had to be put in a nursing home (THIS KILLED ME and changed me...I have never been the same since) and then ...... my husband was deployed to Afghanistan.  Needless to say, school fell off the board for me and I swallowed myself up into my own bubble.  It was the most traumatic time of my life...I am not even kidding. 
BUT, I survived...life went on and I sailed on with it.  But, it was a slump that took a very long time to get out of.....I may not even be completely out of it yet...but, I am trying and I continue to push myself to more positive things.  
There are times where I feel like I am just not doing enough...I need to contribute to our family income and do more.  The medical field is all I know....and I love it.  I have met the most amazing people and I wouldn't change a thing.  My desire has always been to help people.  I LOVE people and it's very rewarding for me to know that I have helped someone or made them smile.  There's no better feeling. 
In saying all of this....this is what I ask.  Can you please pray for me over the next few days? I'm tossing around the idea of returning to school, but, I am wanting to make sure that I have everything in place to be able to do so and know that everything for my family is taken care of so those worries won't be an interruption to me during my studies.  If this is meant to be for me...I believe it will all fall into place. I have already applied to a college and I am waiting on my letter and I have already completed my FAFSA and those results have been sent to the school of my choice.  Your prayers are so much appreciated.  

Love you ALL...so very much!